May 12, 2016

Well... Drum roll.... we are pregnant! AGAIN! Here we go! So far so good. No bleeding yet but I do check every ten minutes because I am so paranoid that we will repeat last time. I still feel very hopeful though- Last time I was happy with the positive blood test but I never quite felt right. This time I have some fear creep in now and then but all in all, I feel pretty good and confident things are going to work out. My levels were higher this time- almost 600! Now we have another blood draw on the 18th hopefully the levels are rising quickly- then nothing until my 9 week ultrasound that I am so excited and anxious for. I am just hoping and praying to throw up within the next couple weeks, as crazy as that sounds. But, thru all the miscarriages and ectopic my levels never got high enough to make me and sick and now if I will just get sick and throw up I will feel more confident that things are going well. I am incredible exhausted though- I take a nap everyday around 4. Hopefully that is a good sign! :) I think so!
Well in the mean time life goes on... the girls are finishing up their activities as school comes to an end, and we are all looking forward to spending more time together this summer! Life is good! I am happy and hopeful! Still anxious, but trying to enjoy each day as it comes! I'm so lucky and blessed to have the beautiful babies that I have. They are so sweet and pray and hope for a baby in my tummy everyday! I love them and their faith strengthens me everyday!